And yet, I STILL update my journal... -Sigh.-

Alright, first I'll say... I'm struggling. Yeah, I'll admit it.

Sure, my life isn't really all that bad. But that's not what's causing me my struggle.

Actually, what's got me downed is the fact that upon every turn that I believe something is going right, I get smacked in the face by a big smelly trout... Yes, imagine that picture.. Standing up, letting out a sigh of relief, maybe something went right this time... BLAM, right in the face.. Scales embedding in my skin and hair... o.O Yeah, not a good image, eh?


--NEWS--

First of all, I'm FINALLY reading through Grim Tales by Bleedman. - [link]

God, so far I freakin' love it. Has all sorts of things that intrigue me. Just before I started writing this journal entry, I made it to a part in the story that is deliciously taboo. So... Emphatically magnificent...

It is of course; [link]

Yes, amazing.. And it does sprout unimaginable thoughts in the depths of my mind.. Every bit of my conciousness urges to understand truely the feelings between Mini-Mandy and Grim Junior.

Why? It's a topic that both disgusts me and intrigues me... I couldn't never think that way for my own family, I'd throw up to even the hint to the idea of the thought of it, yet I find it charming and romantic for Mini to feel that way for Junior? Hmm, I don't know.

--Fictionary Events--
Why do I call it that? Because, I'm writing a fiction..

Alright! I did something that looks GOOD in Sketchup... I've made the leg to a pilotable robot... And even have a spiffy name for them.. Guess what? It's a word that's commonly used, but doesn't at all seem misplaced..

The name of the robots will be the title of the .png that I'll post of a rendering of the leg. HOWEVER.. I'm having troubles... I'm using VRay for Sketchup, and can't figure out the blasted Emissive layers. How do they work?! I'm getting flustered just thinking of my failure attempts at getting the layers to work. Such is the cruelty of a program without REAL tutorials.. ( The only blasted 'tutorials' I've seen, are stupid pages saying "Oh, if you set up emissive with blah-blah added, you'll get this effect" and not just "THIS IS HOW YOU DO EMISSIVE LAYERS" God DAMN.

Yes, GOD DAMN...

So... >.>

--Religion--

This is a topic that angers many, and makes me laugh my ass off. Religion, what is it?

Can you answer me, what religion is? What do you think religion is? Is religion a thing? A feeling? An idea?

This is something that many people don't understand. Religion isn't. No, religion isn't any of those things. Religion is simply, a book.

Yes, a book. A book in which people pour their lives into understand. Yet, the bible doesn't require all that much to understand. Yes, you know what 'bible' I'm talking about.. The Catholic/Christian/Jehovah/etc. bible..

As a man made creation, the bible doesn't take that much to understand. People try too hard to understand things that aren't there. Chasing metaphorical ghosts in literature not meant to teach of history but to teach an ideal or an understanding.

Like, here's a little known fact. 'Moses' was said to have had more than ten commandments. Hundreds of them actually. Yet, in the bible, only ten commandments are writting. Just sneezing, you may be commiting a 'sin' against a commandment. These 'commandments' were supposedly written to guide humanity into the future, while keeping safe the planet in which cradles us and keeps us alive..

But look where we are now.. We're still a child race, in an expanding universe, and we're destroying the very planet we seek safety and nutrition from.

So, if you must ask, I am NOT religious. I believe religion is now a cult used simply for mass control of groups through teachings of a 'higher power' in order for a single group to gain a form of singularity despite grand numbers.

--My view on humanity's creation--
Who created man, what created man, and why was man created?
A question asked by all sorts of people.

What do I think happened? I support the big-bang theory. I support evolution, however..

Our evolution is different.. When one takes a look back in time, man kind just sort of... Popped up.. Like bad zits. Except the very moment the zits appear they're ready to pop right away. Why were we just suddenly here, with intelligence and understanding of tools?

This is something I'm not sure I can make up my mind on. Were we evolved, created by a higher being, or left here from another civilization that hoped we'd not make the same mistakes?

I'm leaning the most on the latter. Why is that? The evidence at hand doesn't support intelligent creation, nor evolution. There's no evidence of a 'missing link' between human and supposed 'earlier ancestors'. And there's evidence of other life-forms and other creatures that humans can't explain, which contradicts a lot of the bible teachings.

--My Last Words Before Sending--

If I in any way offended you with any of that, then get off the internet. Really, shut down your computer, cut the power cord, tear the wiring in-which connects you to the internet out of the wall, then beat your computer with the biggest blunt object that you can pick up.

I don't care if you're religion makes you feel 'hurt and offended'. This is a free country, and a website that encourages freedom of thought and expression. If you're 'offended' by anything in which I say, then just stop reading. It's easy as that, I'm not forcing you to do/read/think anything. I'm completely entitled to my opinion, and of course so are you. But, I'm not looking for your opinion if it isn't an opinion based upon reality. If you such as dare say something along the lines of "But the bible is all true, it's all proved" I will beat you with a tire-iron till your legs are but noodly-appendages with drag behind you as you crawl away from me in pain.. No, I won't REALLY do that, but I'll want to.

Because, the bible isn't proved. Parts of it have things that can be caused as evidence supporting that someone of a type really lived. However, the truth is, what people think of as evidence of facts is simply just evidence that people tried to find an explanation for things. So, they wrote the bible to 'explain' things that were in that time unexplained.